🎶 “My future is calling, my future is calling I gotta go,
I can’t stay here no mo’ I can’t stay here no mo’ gotta go.” 🎶
Throughout my life I’ve struggled with the question: is my passion my purpose? There has been many people throughout my life who have told me, “it’s just a phase.” A phase? This caused me to feel that my passion for talent, music & the entertainment business was not authentic. It honestly caused uncertainty in me and completely convinced me that it was just a phase, a hobby, love and just an interest.
Unfortunately, I decided to listen to the people who told me it was a phase, and these decisions caused a MAJOR setback that could have been avoided. I often remade the decision that I should just leave it at that and give it up. Because of this, my whole life I decided not to put my full focus or efforts towards this passion, in thoughts I was helping me out.
You might be wondering why I would listen to those people. Well, it turns out that I too wasn’t 100% sure if this passion instilled in me was also my purpose. Was God okay with this? Were they one in the same and I just wasn’t cultivating and caring for this ongoing love of mine? I felt this passion of mine was just a mere phase through life and someone else would change the game.
After all, how would it be me to make any change in the world? How could I make a difference, I’m just one person what could I possibly do. It’s been 27 years now and I’ve loved music ever since I could remember. I’ve taken classes, courses, expanded my interests within the broad industry of the music world. I have finally came to the solidified realization that after all these years, that this is NOT a phase.
It was very easy for me to sulk in my demise and get frustrated, angry and bitter about wasting so much time not investing into my passion just because I listened to the negativity of others. How much time I lost, how much more I could have learned. All the wisdom, experience and professionalism I would have if I just kept with it.
But I didn’t want to stay negative, I pulled my self out of that self pity and thought, NO! This was all part of the journey, part of the building process. Luckily the love was so strong that throughout my life I still would take courses, read books, take internships, accept entertainment opportunities and jobs that all would help me towards any potential future goals.
I have a job to do with my life, and not only am I counting on me but the future is. I not only want, need and have to go forward with this passion, but I’m responsible, depended on and destined for it!
This about this.. throughout your lifetime, who was your favorite teacher, instructor, professor, coach, authoritative figure? Was it the mean, strict one who obviously hated their job? OR was your favorite the one teacher who was so passionate about their life’s calling? It’s that one who you could feel really cared if you learned what they have to teach. The one who has a plethora of knowledge to pass to you and does what ever they can to make sure you succeed. Not ever would your favorite teacher be the one who shows up late, doesn’t teach, and literally wastes your time, right?
The point I’m trying to make here is, each and every single person has a life calling, a God-given gift, a passion, and a PURPOSE. If you don’t fulfill your purpose someone else will swoop in and fill your spot with whatever they are trying to do. Why do you think the world is so corrupt and filled with hate. This is because there are so many people unequipped, insecure of their potential and not confident that they have a purpose to live out during there time here on this Earth to help impact this world!
So to answer this daunting question I came up with and ask my self daily. Is my passion my purpose? Well that’s really for you to decide. Against all odds, if you feel that it’s right in your heart, your soul and your mind. If it’s healthy for you and your love for it is so deep, if it’s your God-given gift and you want to use it to make an impact on this world then YES, your passion is your purpose. If it’s unhealthy, and you just want it selfishly for fame, fortune, or to prove things to your enemies, then I’m sorry but NO, your passion is NOT your purpose.
🎶Dear future me,
Will I be alright?
because I’m trying to maintain
I lose sleep at night
Trying to not go insane
Will i ever move from this place?
I can’t give up
I don’t wanna lose out
I’m trying to conquer this thing I call life
Sometimes I wonder
Is it worth the fight?
Dear future me,
If I can be honest,
Do I even have a chance?
Dear future me,
I can see the sun peeking through the rain
Cause I let go of the pain and shame
Finally, I can see clearly now the rain is gone
I think I can make it now the pain is gone🎶